To Love and Be Loved

It is a risk to love.

But what if it doesn't work out?

Ah, but what if it does.

Maybe it's true,

maybe we don't know what we have

until we've lost it.

but, maybe we don't know 

what we're missing

until we find it.

Loved you once, 

love you still,

always have,

always will.

"It's impossible" said pride.

"It's risky" said experience.

"It's pointless" said reason.

"Give it a try" whispered the heart.

Stop dreaming, start believing

Start living, stop fighting

Stop thinking, start laughing

Start loving, stop trying.

If you want to know

where your heart is,

look where your mind goes

when it wanders.

Love is not just about 

finding the right person,

but creating a right relationship.

It's not about how much

love you have in the beginning,

but how much love 

you build til the end.

Forget the reasons why it won't work,

and believe the one reason why it will.

Take a chance, 

because you never know how absolutely 

perfect something could turn out to be.

Some people come into our lives,

leave footprints in our hearts,

and we are never, ever the same.

The best love is the kind that awakens the soul,

and makes us reach for more, 

that plants a fire in our hearts 

and brings peace to our minds.

Those three words,

are said too much,

they're not enough.

Run when Feeling the Pain then Push Harder

I woke up this morning with a mission in mind; find awesome, cheap, cute running shoes. I hunted all over the mall and other stores downtown and I FINALLY found a pair of Nike's for 20 bucks! I'm very picky about tennis shoes, so this was a great find for me. I haven't had running shoes in quite sometime so I haven't been running in quite sometime..I'm very out of shape. So I thought if I bought new shoes it would motivate me to go running. I started breaking them in as soon as I got home by running up to Capitol hill. So my new summer resolution is to go running at least a few times a week. My goal is to be able to run up Capitol hill and back home by the end of the summer. (Without dying). Although I don't enjoy running as much as some people, it does help me clear my mind and helps me justify all the ice cream cones I get from the Maverik. They are only a dollar...what can I say. I think I'm addicted to them. Not to mention, they have a punch card, buy ten cones get one free, and a friend of mine who works in there usually will punch half the card every time I go in. Although, I must say, these ice cream adventures were much more fun when Alina was here. Anyways..running. My new summer resolution!

Summer Lovin'

So, this is probably the longest I've ever gone without blogging, but I don't have much to blog about. Since I started working at Victoria's Secret, I spend most of my time at work, since I also kept my job at F21. I was reading through some old posts the other day and there was one that said, "I wish I worked at Victoria's Secret just for the discount." Well, while the discount is very nice, my hours are kind of crazy. Two days in a row last week I worked from 6 pm to 7 am. Yeah, AM. Careful what you wish for. ;) Alina Twitchell, moved back to Vegas, so when I'm not at work I'm extra bored. I miss her. BUT, I will see her next week at family camp. OH...Haleigh and I are getting an apartment together in the fall. I'm so excited! I wish she would come back right now, but then neither of us would have money for the apartment yet, so I guess I can wait. I have new song obsessions. It consists of four songs. Each of which, I listen to about five times a day:

Better Than Love- Griffin House
Someone Like You- Adele
Make You Feel My Love- Adele
If I Were You- Diagram of the Heart
We play the last song at F21, it puts me in a great mood, and I dance around the store every time we play it. I have another new thing...Transformers! I watched the first two movies the other day, then went a saw the third one..Me gusta mucho! Since I'm going camping next week, and probably going home in August, I found it very necessary to buy cute new carry-on stuff. I was scoping PINK stuff out the whole time I was at work today. I've had the same stupid Adidas duffel bag forever, and I'm sick of it. (I would just like to point out that spell check rejects both, "duffel" and "duffle" but I think "duffel" looks better). I also couldn't resist the cute weekend bag, so I went with both! Pretty nice purchase with my discount. :)

Happiness Depends upon Ourselves

I haven't posted a blog since I've been back in Utah, and I have this awesome internal alarm clock that doesn't let me sleep in, so I thought now would be a good time to post something! So when I got back from Ohio, I started dating this pretty cute boy named Seth. Seth and I have been friends for sometime now, since he's Ali's brother. This past weekend Ali and Seth decided they wanted to take a trip home to Vegas. Well Ali and I had been planning on going for a couple months, so I figured I would tag along. We rode down there with Andrew (Seth's roommate) and another guy that none of us knew. We left here at around 12 Friday night/Saturday morning. I only slept about an hour on the way there, but we got there in just a little over five hours. Ali and I attempted to go back to sleep when we got to her grandparent's house, but that just didn't work out. Saturday afternoon we kind of just hung out before their family get-together. I enjoyed getting to meet a lot of their family. They made me feel welcome, and they had great food! Saturday night we went down to the Strip. We just walked up and down and watched the water show a couple of times, but it was a Saturday night plus Memorial Day weekend, so it was pretty crowded. The experience was neat! Sunday we went to church in Ali and Seth's home ward. It was nice to go to a family ward. After church we went to their older sister's house to visit. Their mom made her famous chicken pot pie for dinner. It was way good! We played Apples to Apples...I never get sick of that game! Sunday night kind of made me a very happy girl. :) But that might be a story for another day. I will just say that Seth is the cutest boy ever. Sunday night Ali and I wanted to do our usual Denny's run,which turned out to be a major fail. Our waiter forgot to put our order in so we ended up being there way longer then we wanted to. We left early Monday morning, and I slept most of the way home. It was a very fun trip and Seth and Ali have an amazing family! "Remember to laugh when life give you a moment to breath, and smile when it takes your breath away." -A very wise man

I Want a Kitten

Once upon a time, I could not stand cats. In fact, I wasn't to fond of animals in general. But there was something about cats especially that I really didn't like. Not to mention, they made me sneeze like crazy. Last summer, I was a nanny for a family that had two cats. One was a long haired cat and the other, short haired. Scooter was the long haired one. He was really cute, so I started to warm up to him. I noticed after awhile that I could pet Scooter and he didn't make me sneeze at all, but if I even looked in the general direction of the other cat, I would start sneezing (doesn't make sense to me either). When I moved out to Utah and started talking to Kyle, he told me he had a cat. Well he told me it wasn't his cat, but he was "cat sitting" for a few months. I gave Shelby a chance because she reminded me of Scooter. "Kyle's" cat, Shelby, is the best cat in the world. I'm completely in love with her.

ISN'T

SHE

CUTE?!?!

Cutest cat in the world! So the reason I want a kitten now is because Shelby's real owners are taking her back soon. :( But thanks to her, I have a serious obsession with cats now. I even kind of want this to happen when I can have my own kitty:

Come Back to Me

I've been listening to this song nonstop the past couple of days. Thanks, David Cook. 

You say you gotta go and find yourself
You say that you're becoming someone else
Don't recognize the face in the mirror looking back at you
You say you're leaving as you look away
I know there's really nothing left to say
Just know I'm here whenever you need me, I'll wait for you
So I'll let you go, I'll set you free
And when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me
Take your time, I won't go anywhere
Picture you with the wind in your hair
I'll keep your things right where you left them
I'll be here for you
Oh and I'll let you go, I'll set your free
And when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me
And I hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you, come back to me
I can't get close if you're not there
I can't get inside if there's no soul to bear
I can't face you, I can't save you
It's something you'll have to do
So I'll let you go, I'll set you free
And when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me
Come back to me
So I'll let you go, I'll set you free
And when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me
And I hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you, come back to me
You find you, come back to me
When you find you, come back to me
When you find you, come back to me

Airport Adventures

Yesterday was quite an eventful day. I was super excited to fly back to Ohio, minus the flying part. I used to think flying was really fun. I loved the take off and looking out the window at the clouds right beside the plane, but after not flying for a few years, I developed a serious fear. I did okay when I flew home for Christmas, but yesterday there were thunderstorms all across the east. The plane ride from Salt Lake to Memphis was fine, until we tried to land. I thought for sure we were going to crash. Once I got inside the airport, they were telling everyone to get inside the nearest bathroom because there was a tornado hitting Memphis at that very moment. Needless to say, I wasn't too worried about missing my flight at this point. After the tornado passed, they made an announcement saying all planes were grounded for at least the next hour. Oh on a side note...when I got off the plane in Memphis, one of the guys working in the airport pointed at my Ohio State sweatshirt and started SCREAMING about how Jim Tressel is a cheater, a liar, etc, etc. Uhm...That guy must really want to get fired or something. Anyway, I didn't want to be stuck in the Memphis airport all night, but then again I also didn't want to take off when the storm was still going on. We boarded at about 8:40, which worried me because there was still lightning all across the sky. The pilot came on and said "We are expecting this to be a pretty bumpy ride, it might be a little smoother about half way through...." The ride never got any smoother. The lady next to me told me she flies pretty often, like once a week often, and she said that flight was the worst she had ever been on. Which kind of gives me hope that I will never experience a flight worse than that. I've never been so happy as I was when we finally landed in Columbus, but once I picked up my suitcase, I realized that during the tornado warning, the lives of those who load luggage onto the plane are probably more important than our luggage and they had left all of our stuff outside. Everything inside of my suitcase was soaked. It was one in the morning, I had been up since 7, and all of my clothes were wet. It's a good thing Kelsey Spahr was there to greet me at the airport :) or I would have lost my mind last night. I was happy to see my mom and Cory too! I'm glad that day is over and I'm happy to be home. It was nice to sleep in my own bed last night.