Sleepless in Salt Lake

Today was my last day of IT 102. By some miracle I passed the test! I've been waiting for that class to be over since the day it started. So yesterday I sat with the same book in my hands from about noon until 5:30. I read 23 pages...Needless to say I was somewhat distracted. I felt like today was very productive. I got my nutrition quizzes completed, I did my IT project basically all by myself, and  I enjoyed another communications class with Haleigh. Oh last night we went to Denny's at midnight. Gross. I remember now why I don't eat there. I should probably go to sleep like right now. I have to get up in the morning and write a four page paper, but I can't sleep, I can never sleep. I'm missing out on a photo shoot right now with Kirsten, Haleigh, and Ali. They're having fun, but I had my doubts about the legitimacy of the whole thing. There was just something sketchy about it, so I didn't go. I'm eating vegetable soup right now. If I die, it's because I had a heart attack. It is so salty! Dub tee eff. I'm in love. There is no doubt about it in my mind. It actually keeps me up at night most of the time. He is all I ever think about. Literally. No matter what anyone else tells me, I just can't stand not being with him. Oh speaking of not caring about what people tell me, I just realized in the past few days how much I hate hypocrites. I don't think I've ever been around such a hypocrite, and quite frankly it's driving me nuts. The world does not revolve around people and their rude selfishness. I don't cry as much as a used to. Maybe college has made me toughen up! Ha. I did cry today though. I kind of held it in, but I honestly just wanted to sob. I still at this moment just want to cry. I just want to scream I love you in his face. I'm dreading this weekend. I'll be worried all Thursday night, ALL day Friday, and into the morning Saturday. I miss the good old days when I was in love with Patrick Sheppard. And the only reason he didn't like me back was because I had glasses. This blog makes no sense. "Love is not just about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. It's not about how much love you have in the beginning, but how much love you build till the end."